Gym

Well today my dad told me he would pay for my gym membership I just have to pay him back :D That way I can start this coming weekend :D I am sooo happy, this is great, I can start on getting my body the way I want it to look, and maybe stop feelin this depression so bad. Yeah!

First Post :D

This is my very first post on this blog. Welcome everyone. Now on to the trials.

My weight. I am currently at about 289 pounds (god I am fat). I am shortly going to join the gym nearby, but I unfortunately have go get the funds first (raising a toddler isn't cheap you know). However, I am very tired of my weight, I am constantly tired, sick and scared for my health. I am only 26, but I feel about 60. I am also scared not to be here for my daughter in the future. I just feel lately like I am always hungry, I feel like I have to constantly eat...hungry, hungry, hungry.

I have joined weightwatchers in the past and at one point was being successful, but then I had my daughter and gained much more weight than I have ever had in the past. I am embarrassed by my weight, and I hate it a lot!

I have a goal to lose weight for my annivsary August 14. I have something planned for that day I want for my husband to find me desirable again. To be honest, we haven't had sex in about I would say 1 month, and I feel that it is my weight affecting our relationship. Don't get me wrong, otherwise our relationship is great, it is just this one department that I feel that I am affecting the relationship, by not taking charge of my weight or how I look. This is going to be the beginning of something great (I know cheesy ball).